"This Rose Bush"

"For I will tell you once again as I have once before. This rose bush will not grow when the snow falls. If the snow continues to fall, this rose bush will wither and die out. Therefore, this rose bush cannot survive in the North. But, at the same time, this rose bush may not grow so well in the heat. Therefore, this rose bush cannot survive very happily in the South. Therefore, a happy medium shall be found. So, alas! This rose bush may grow, blossom, and bloom."

I felt compelled to write that.

So I seem to be obessing.

Hmm... Well then, I think I might just drop it :]

Seems like a Healthy idea to me, don't you agree?
Indeed. :]

Moving on to something new and amazing. I find my roller blades today. Still in good shape other than the fact that they are scratched up beyond belief and the wheels are kinda cracked, but that's okay!

Ima get new wheels :3 And then I can be even more awesome on these trails for bikes around my house. I'm so glad North Richland Hills has a bike trail. It makes me happy. I just hope I don't run into the train from Grapevine that likes to zoom by and honk it's horn... It's so loud! But it's very vintage, so I guess that makes it alright?

Hmmm Anyways, I've decided to just let things play out as they may, take things as they come instead of holding them in one place, staring at them, and trying to make them change to my will. I'm going to be more proactive as well, meaning I'm going to start doing my homework, all of it, I'm going to ask for help when I need it and seek for help when I cannot find it near me. I'm going to become stronger within these next two months. For I will need strength to keep my legs up on two inch heels to walk across the stage of the Fort Worth Convention Center.

Graduation, here I come!

Dear Bossier

You there... yes you, I've got some words I want you to read. They are about you.
But of course... you'll never read them, you don't have any eyes. So why should I even write them?

I wrote this letter in my head cause so many things were left unsaid, but now you're gone and I Can't Think Straight. Oh, this could be the one last chance to make you understand...

My blood aches from trying to make you appear, oh... it's such an awful sight to just see me in the mirror. I HATE this distance in between us, I don't think it's FAIR.
All my time's spent wondering, why I want to be with you. Cause you're not here and now it's clear... I want to get back to you.

But you'll never read this letter... because you probably will never care.

This distance... I'll cross it and whether or not you're ready for me to come back.. I'll be back. Back home where I belong. Where I can walk along the Red River Banks... Where I can go on an adventure in the woods and watch the stars light up the sky in Haughton. I will be back one day... whether or not you're ready for me to come home.

I'll be home soon Louisiana :]

A song stuck in my head atm

Low Fidelity - The Spill Canvas


Wish I could hold you up in my arms
Keep you safe and sound from any harm.
I can't seem to function from this far away
Never did a moment look so dull
Without your color in my day

Oh, it feels so good to hear you speak.

This is where I start to miss you more than I can bare
I hate this distance in between us, I don't think it's fair.
All my time spent wondering
How to stay true to you
But you're not here, and now I fear
I'll never get back to you.

Would have carried you to anywhere you please
Even if my limbs were broken and my body was diseased.
I can't seem to operate from this far away
There's a million littles voices telling me I should've stayed

Oh, it feels so good to hear you speak

This is where I start to miss you more than I can bare
I hate this distance in between us, I don't think it's fair.
All my time spent wondering
How to stay true to you
But you're not here, and now I fear
I'll never get back to you.

My blood aches from trying to make you appear
It's an awful sight to just see me in the mirror

This is where I start to miss you more than I can bare
I hate this distance in between us, I don't think it's fair.
All my time spent wondering
Why I stay true to you
'Cause you're not here, and now it's clear
I'm never going back to you.

No, no I'm never going back to you.

Ignored.

I think it's so funny when I get on Facebook, see a person I need to talk to online/on the messenger, and I say "Hey!" and they go offline. I love it.

Why Can't You Just TELL ME YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ME instead of GOING OFFLINE.

It makes me so ANGRY. It makes me want to RAGE like I am doing NOW.

On a side note, HOORAY FOR CAPS LOCK.