Money.

Money is a form of payment in exchange for a good/product.

Money is also something else. Something my family fights over.

My dad worked his ass off so much in Iraq and all those other countries to sit in a chair and do amazing things with a computer and other technologies. This in turn earned him and us back home a good amount of money.

My mom sat at home, attempting to go to college and work a part-time job. She was going to school to finally finish her Business/Marketing degree. She also spent the majority of the money my dad earned. Then she spent even more of HIS money by getting into an almost critical car crash, spending two years in hospitals, rehabilitation centers, and an assisted living facility. Not to mention her awesome electric wheelchair and the many things that come with caring for her at home.

My brother cons my dad into giving him money, paying for his road trips/camping trips/going to see his lover/etc, and never pays him back. My brother has continued to not get a job, and to live off of his scholarship money and my dad's funds.

I have also contributed to taking away my dad's money. I constantly buy food, go out to the movies with friends, take out money and put it in my checking account, and my dad also pays for all of my gas. I have tried to apply for jobs, many times. No one will hire me. I think this is do to Inflation in our economy; either that or it is due to my laziness to never calling the employers to see if I can get an interview. Never the less, I will be moving to Houston, as said for the millionth time now. Moving will be slightly expensive due to only having a van and a sports car in my family. We're going to have to rent either a Uhaul trailer to attach to the van or Monte Carlo, or get a Uhaul van/truck to put my room into.

But, back on the subject of money... The subject of it upsets everyone in my four-person family. If my mom tells me to spend, my dad tells me to not. If my brother spends my dad's money I yell at him, and vice verse on me. If my mom spends money, my dad yells at her. And the chain goes on for miles.

Hopefully one day we will all see that spending so much money if often a waste.
I also hope I will break off and stop spending HIS money forever. I really do hate taking advantage of having so much. After all... I've grown up to be such a spoiled rotten brat.

Sober

I've been love drunk by so
many others for so long,
but now that I am
sobering up, my
vision clearing
and through
the blur
of it all
I see
You.